Sunday, December 28, 2008


I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas. I just got out of bed (9am) and am exhausted. This was quite a big Christmas for me in regards to visiting and visitors and running around so I've just crashed. My Fibromyalgia is playing up as I've not had enough sleep. My muscles are aching and I'm all scrunched up from all the driving and sitting in uncomfortable seats at other people's houses for hours. But still enjoyed seeing all the family and having a laugh.
I felt very spoilt this Christmas. Got some lovely presents. My kids gave me some gorgeous mineral eyeshadows from Barekiss Mineral Cosmetics (the colours I got are below). I also got a great denim jacket and some Belgian truffles. Mum got me a floppy sun hat, a lovely summer bag and a white gold and blue topaz necklace...and more chocolates.

We spent a noisy Christmas Day at my uncle's house with most of the family, got home around 5pm and visited some friends. Kids ran amok in the pool while adults had some champagne.

Boxing Day at my mum's and then my aunt's (more food) and home to try and clean before a friend popping over Saturday morning, then movies with friends and kids to see The Day the Earth Stood Still...THEN Supre so my daughter could spend some Christmas money on a little black dress, and finally enjoying an evening of red wine and pizza with a friend and her son.

I'm so tired and I've got a belly like someone who is six month's pregnant!

My babies are leaving 4am tomorrow morning for two weeks in Coffs Harbour with their dad (his family is over east). Need to pack and organise today and do more cleaning as the place is just a wreck. Then, 2 weeks on my own. Going to miss them soooo much as have not been away from them for more than a weekend over the last 5 years. They are both starting to fret a little, although I'm sure they will love seeing all their cousins and their other Nanna.

Well I'm going to finish this cuppa and head off down to get the paper. Need to do a big list today as I'm sure I'll forget something. Also need to pop down to shops and get some cottage cheese and other yummy stuff for the week. Making sure kids and ex husband take all the left over chocolates and nuts with them. Feeling so crappy, just want to feel bright and clear again. Will weigh in tomorrow after trying to get rid of some of this bloat today.


Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Well I did it....

.....after wanting to for ages I finally got my nose pierced and I love it! (and yes it hurt). I got a little .25ct diamond and white gold stud. Only had it done yesterday so still red and won't be healed properly for another 4 weeks so need to be really careful as if it comes out accidentally ie towels, clothing, you've only got about five minutes to get it back in as the cartilage on your nose loves to close up very quickly.

My daughter loves it but my son hates it and, apparently hates me now because "my friends will see it and think you're weird". He's still sulking but I'm sure he'll get over it eventually.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Tuesday, December 16, 2008


I'm really not looking forward to the next couple of weeks. As much as I say I will just enjoy Christmas and eat what I like without guilt, I just can't. I feel fat and guilty with every piece of crap I put in my mouth. I feel like I am suffocating sometimes with event after event and food, food, bloody food.
Yes I know I could just say no, and I have to events as well as to the food. Did the work Christmas bash on Friday and felt sick and had stomach cramps most of the weekend. Even though my diet has been far from perfect this last month or so (no weight loss to speak of) I've still been eating good food - just cheating on kids bikkies and muesli bars etc. But, eating those samosas and money bags and pizza on Friday (as well as a couple of drinks)..ugh. My body just wasn't used to all that fat and yuck. Then to mum's for lunch on Saturday...
She's so difficult when it comes to food as if I tell her I am "dieting" she gets all stressed and tries to cook something healthy, but I decided to just let it go and have my fortnightly lunches at her place as my 'cheat' meal. Mum is supposed to be watching her diet as she is overweight, she's got Type 2 Diabetes and clogged arteries, but, it appears she sees my giving the ok to prepare "normal" food as a green light to go all out and an excuse for HER to overindulge. The result is going from a chicken and salad wrap to arriving to chips and cashews on the table, full on roast chicken and fat laden veges, broccoli and cauliflower with cheese sauce and then ice cream for dessert! WTF??? She knows I am still trying to lose weight so what would possess her to serve up something like that?
Anyway, I'm determined not to be my mother, nor any other member of my gluttonous family for that matter so I'm going extra clean until Christmas, then have my 3 planned days that I've got to fulfil lunch/dinners and then I'm done. Kids are off to Coffs Harbour for two weeks with my ex on 29th at which stage I will be chucking any biscuits, muesli bars and any other tempting foods and having two weeks of detoxing and getting back on track. I've got the first week off work too so I really want to just get into a routine for the rest of the holidays. I'm back at uni on 25th February and need to have a routine going by then as it only gets harder once I have to factor study back in.
I am going to use green amber and red tags for the day to stipulate whether I have stuck to plan or not. I pinched this off Shar's blog. It's such a good idea and great for accountability. Green is if stuck to planned diet and training, amber is if stuck to either diet or training. Red is not stuck to diet or training! Hmmmm so far all my days have been amber or red but really want to get into the green YEAH~!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hope my friends understand. I feel like I've been saying no to going out for years now - with varying excuses : I'm on a diet, I'm off carbs, I can't fit into any of my clothes, I can't afford it. Been asked out already for a couple of things ie drinks etc when my kids are away but have said no. And, this time it's because I just don't want to. I don't want to go out, for all the above reasons. I know people probably roll their eyes back in their heads as I've been going on and on about getting in shape and losing weight for some time now, but I'm doing it this time. I'm making myself accountable and you can bet I'm going to have my hot new bod plastered all over the internet when I do it!!
That's enough of a rant for today. Not going to work as feeling really unwell since yesterday. Woke up very seedy also this morning. I think I am dehydrated. Should be at work as it's last week before we break up for Christmas for two weeks but if I don't rest I will end up even worse and I've still got a heap of kids stuff on the next few nights, I need to stay on top of things.
Might catch up on some half finished blogs this weekend.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

For Doris

Hey Doris. Thought you could use this next time you get an Anonymous comment, although very handy for any situation. Click list to enlarge.