Getting my groove back

That's me and Manpower in 1994, a year before I was impregnated by Gollum (see previous post).

After the show they offered photos with the guys for $5. All the other girls just stood there between guys at the back..but Frankie had other ideas.

Can you spot Jamie Durie? He's the one grabbing my arse (well ok... the one with his hand on my thigh). All the actual excitement occurred after the photo was taken, when my hair got stuck in the young lad's necklace. Took ages to get unstuck. It was pure hell.

I think my main aim from now on is going to be to get my groove back. Yeah I want to lose weight and feel great, but that's part of it. I can work on getting my groove back now and don't have to be 20kgs lighter to do it. I've kinda given up on trying to look good for the past 3 years or so. I don't fit into any of my nice clothes. I refuse to buy any clothes in bigger sizes so I just wear the same thing day after day. I don't really put a lot of effort into my hair or makeup or accessories as quite frankly, I don't want to be noticed. I don't like to make eye contact, especially with attractive men.

However recent events, ie Pool Guy, led me to believe that I do still have my groove, it's just suppressed and tired. Just one week of clean eating and consistent exercise really perked me up and I just have to keep that going and it will become automatic, and I'll feel light and bright all the time. I won't be laying around on half naked men every day...as much as I'd like too, but I'll feel better about myself at the very least.

So...to start - buy some summer pants. I've been wearing jeans every day for the last 2 years. I kid you not. Not summer pants, heavy denim jeans. I don't know why I haven't bought myself something nicer. I guess I keep thinking I'll lose weight and fit into my other clothes so I don't want to spend the money, but I haven't lost the weight yet, and it could take another couple of months to drop a size so I have to tell myself that buying some nicer clothes that actually FIT me, isn't giving in, it's just being practical (and more comfortable). So, that's what I'm going to do this week - buy some summer pants. I have to hurry though as all the new winter stock is appearing in the shops and there'll be nothing left but nanna pants.

BTW I didn't get to see Pool Guy last week. My boy decided he couldn't bear another half hour of swimming after spending two weeks straight at the pool for his school swimming classes so he point blank refused to go. I sulked for a while and then told him that I really, really wanted to go next week, and I told him why. He was very excited and asked if there was the possibility of marrying Pool Guy. I told him anything was possible, so he's promised we will definitely go this week! Stay tuned.....