I'm not sure what's up with me, but it's like I just don't care anymore. I'm just not feeling it. And it's been so long since I remember feeling 'it', that I don't know if I'd recognise it anyway.
The date was ok. It was nice.
He greeted me with a kiss on the cheek, ordered our coffees and we chatted. Yeah, I was pretty self-conscious but did a good job at hiding it. He was kinda attractive I guess. I didn't really have any thoughts on that either way. We got on well....but not how I imagine it should be. No 'spark'.
He may have felt the same way....not sure. Anyway, coffee and a bit of a walk on the beach and we were through. It had to be quick as I needed to be home to take Ethan for a karate grading.
He walked me to my car and we said goodbye. He kissed me on the cheek - and that was it.
So...
If I hear from him, great. If not, great.
What's it supposed to feel like on a first date with a total stranger?
I'm pretty sure you're not supposed to feel NOTHING AT ALL.
EDIT - actually I don't know if I want him to call me at all. All I want to do is train this spring/summer. Quite desperately actually. Man Proof Cave/work/train/eat/sleep. That would make me happier than anything - getting in a solid few month's training without injury. THAT is something I have feelings about.
EDIT - actually I don't know if I want him to call me at all. All I want to do is train this spring/summer. Quite desperately actually. Man Proof Cave/work/train/eat/sleep. That would make me happier than anything - getting in a solid few month's training without injury. THAT is something I have feelings about.
10 comments:
Your plan for the Summer sounds good Frankie, you might find someone by accident that way, rather than focusing on looking for someone...does that make sense...? Sorry, just had a pretty strong coffee and am feeling a bit spaced out...LOL
xoxox
I think its ok to feel nothing. if it ain there, it aint there.
I once dated a guy who looked exactly like smith jared from SATC - yet, I felt nothing. It was a shame but if there's no sparkies at the beginning I doubt you'll be feeling any fire later.
Summer of training fun sounds more like the go!
I dunno about the peck on the cheek -- I would have had your cheeks on my pecker by then!
**shameless rehash from alternative medium but worth another run for the blog punters**
Feeling for you luv.
xx
I hear ya... I think yr summer and mine are going to involve the same things. : )
xo
Get to your plan for summer adn if something worth leaving your Man proof cave for comes along, all good, if not you'll be feeling damn fine anyway.
x
Two two word haikus for you.
"Don't settle" (for anyone)
"Start training" (bad ass!)
And maybe that;s why you didn't feel anything. You had already put your mind into "Nope" mode. I think when you are ready, you will feel more than nothing.
Sandra I've focussed, not focussed...doesn't seem to make a diff. I think it's just me me me. But that's cool. Not ready. Will I ever be?
Casey - Smith..droooool. Yeah I've dated a couple of hotties and just thought NO WAY can't even have a conversation with them..what's the point?
Bam - you're just plain dirty. Fuck that was funny last night though. Still chuckling...
Thanks Ms Smack...it's fine. I'm fine. Ya know...it'll happen I guess.
Booyah! Ms Friday..we gonna be fit AS xxx
My cave IS pretty cool Shar but would definitely poke my head out if someone was worth it. Excited about my training now though :o)
Liz, I love it! Starting tonight.... Love training at night. Bought a new lamp for the garage on the way home. Yippee!
You know what Ms Band? I think you've hit the nail on the head. I just wanted to go and get it over with..just in case he was like...THE ONE...but never really wanted him to be. I'm so relieved now. x
Dirty? Me? Why, I'm a perfect gentleman....
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