Fare thee well Blockbuster (Guy)

So The Idiot Formerley Known as Blockbuster Guy (TIFKABBG) has sold one of his Blockbuster stores to Civic...the one I used to go to.

This is a good thing as I haven't been able to go there since June. I have to go to Civic which is all the way down and across the other side of the highway.

Yays!

TIFKABBG, as I think I mentioned in a previous post, is now The Jim's Mowing Guy. I think he must have had to sell to give his ex-wife some dosh. He's definitely still living with his parents 'cos I accidentally drove past there the other night at 11.29pm and his Jim's Mowing trailer was sitting out the front.

If you have no bloody idea what I am talking about (and are bored shitless), start here ...or work your way through The Man Flesh Files for the scintillating story of how a creepy crush became a totally awesome and pervy adventure, which resulted in me having sex for the first time since 5 February 2005, (between approximately 10.00 and 10.05pm.)

TIFKABBG also features in The Stalker Diaries if you are that way inclined.

I have no internet at home at the moment and that makes me sad. But, when I get my ADSL2+ next week am going to do MORE blogging and vlogs and a whole host of other shit because I LOVE IT, and I want to do lots more things I love from now on.

This Week...

...I have been totally drug free.

I had a house inspection, a flooded garage/gym, a manflesh rejection and a maths exam and I still did NOT lose my shit.

Fuck I'm good.

EDIT - for those of you reading this out of context, the drugs in question were anti-anxiety meds I'd been on for 8 years.

The Silence of the Phone

At this stage I can draw no conclusion other than that he must have been the victim of some sort of bizarre accident. Yes...that must be it.

The end.

There, I texted.

Thanks guys. I am not waiting for the poll to close cos I'm bloody impatient and I just want to do it and get it over with. I've never actually ever ever asked a guy out before (at least I can't remember doing it), so I'm a bit nervous. But, I did initiate the contact on RSVP so I thought it seemed appropriate that I follow up.

Oh and all the comments about my voice are so funny to me. I've always thought I had an awful voice and hated hearing myself speak on tape or video and BTW, he DID hear my voice. We spoke on the phone for approximately 84 minutes on Tuesday night.

So...the text. I went with number 2, cos that's the one Ali liked and he's a BOY so I'm hoping he knows his shit (no pressure though Ali!)

I texted about 10 minutes ago...no answer yet.....

Meanwhile in the world that exists OUTSIDE of Frankie's head....

The maths exams sucked big hairy gonads....everyone seemed to be of the same opinion about it.

I only answered probably 7 out of 20 questions (that's what happens when you don't open a book for 4 weeks) but only need about 25% in the exam to pass the unit. Never been in this position before..not knowing if I passed or failed. A bit like texting men I guess...

Waiting totally sucks - Vlog

The gos'

So...the guy...

I met him on RSVP, thought his profile was interesting and sent him a 'kiss'.

He replied to my kiss via email and we continued with half a dozen emails over a couple of days. We seem to be very compatible and things were going nicely. Then out of the blue he sends me an email saying something like "look, you're not really what I'm looking for, I won't waste anymore of your time".

O...k...... (fuck fuck fuck fuck!!! I really liked this one!!)

Being, ME, I couldn't let that one go and obsessed about it for about...5 minutes, before I wrote back (like a loooozer) saying that 'I hoped it wasn't 'blah blah blah' because I was only joking and I think it may have given you the wrong impression".

He actually replied saying that it was not 'blah blah blah', it was 'this other thing' I'd said. I'm not going to go into what I said. It was a stoopid and irrelevant thing to say but there was no malicious intent behind it...he thought there was.

So..again, me being ME, I had to reply and tell him that I had meant no offence. At this stage I realised I had to pretty much pull something out of the hat to get him back onside. I didn't want to risk another 'rejection' email though so I ended my email with what amounted to an invitation, an insult and a challenge, all rolled into one sentence...ending with my mobile number.

And what do you know?...it worked!

He texted me a barrage of abuse. I insulted him back...text...text..text and then he called.

We had a bit of a laugh about my dirty tactics (he knew EXACTLY what I was trying to get him to do) and then chatted for an hour.

I quite like him. He's a Social Worker. He's also a single dad, having brought up his 17 year old son on his own. He's got a great sense of humour, he's totally politically incorrect and incredibly passionate about what he does for a living.

The conversation finished up with "I enjoyed our chat" (me) "Me too" (him).

That's IT.

I have no idea if I will hear from him again or if I'm still in the rejection basket. I did very well to not text him yesterday and will just suck it up and try not to analyse the crap out of it like I usually do. But of course I am really really hoping to hear from him before the weekend.

Meanwhile 6'5" 'wall o' man' still wants to take me out for coffee and I kinda promised him I'd get back to him after exams with a definite day/time we could meet....but all I can think about is Social Worker Guy.

I don't know what's happened to Oil Rig Guy. He's a bit of a worry...always online on RSVP, a bit of a player I think. He popped up to say hi the other day and I don't even think he remembered 'which one' I was. He may be slightly senile I think.

The end.

Do NOT...

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The Man Flesh Whisperer

OMG...I may have just pulled off the best sex-wrangling move in the history of the known universe.

Will report back if it actually.....ya know....works.....

Awesomeness

Re this morning's post

Thought I should clarify here that just because I want a relationship with someone a bit more mature...it doesn't mean I am not more than happy to have hot and steamy sexual relations with younger guys...who are hot....and steamy... and over 6ft tall.

What? Yeah I know this isn't the personal ads, but I'm just saying.

(call me: 555-C-O-U-G-A-R)

Re this morning's post

Thought I should clarify here that just because I want a relationship with someone a bit more mature...it doesn't mean I am not more than happy to have hot and steamy sexual relations with younger guys...who are hot....and steamy... and over 6ft tall.

What? Yeah I know this isn't the personal ads, but I'm just saying.

(call me: 555-C-O-U-G-A-R)

Big People Love

I'm feeling good, calm, serene.

Have been on only 25% meds since Monday.

Have a house inspection Tuesday and an exam Friday. Not stressed at all.

Oil Rig Guy hasn't called and I don't care. As much as I would love to lick his pecs, he doesn't really do it for me. Not sure why. It could be the height thing. He's only 5'10". I like taller than that..at least 6ft really. It's just a thing.

Met a nice guy on a dating site last night and had a chat for a while. Funny, I received about 60 contact requests the first day and I only accepted 3, he was one of them. He had not been on the site for ages apparently, and got an email from the site saying to check me out as I was a match for his criteria...so he did. Pretty cool. Quite serendipitous don't you think Kerry??

Anyway, we had a great chat. He's really interesting, literate (for a change), has very similar outlook on life as I do and similar views on some things that are quite important to me. Oh and he's 6'5" and built like a brick shithouse....he he....which gets me all a quiver. That's one big 'wall o' man' !

He's 48...48! I don't know what's happened to me lately but I've totally gone off younger guys. I am lying about my age on the dating site, saying I'm 38 (when I'm 44) as I thought I liked younger guys but there's been no-one under 40 that's grabbed my attention at all.

Six months ago I would never have considered dating a guy over 45 (I may have even blogged about it I think). Don't know why, they just didn't interest me. Now I look at the younger guys and I'm just 'meh'. I'm sure they're fine for younger girls but I'm over it.

I want BIG PEOPLE LOVE now.

It's all your fault Bronwyn!

Edit - Me and The Big Guy (wall o' man) had made a 'chat date' for Saturday night (as I have no life and he was going to log in from work as he does shifts). But just checked in on the site and he's left me a little note telling me how much he enjoyed our chat and that we should catch up. Now that's what I like, a man of action! I'm going to wait until after my exam next Friday before I accept any invitations though.

Frikkin' unpacking!

So I FINALLY got the garage unpacked and sorted. Fuck I'm tired and sore.

But I can start training again now thank g.a.w.d. 'cos I'm in so much pain at the moment I need to start getting my body moving again or everything is going to sieze up.

That's the garage and I LOVE it. It's double car length, opens up at both ends and it's under the house. We had a 37C day here a couple of weeks ago and it was SO cool under there.

I can open either the western or eastern end, depending where the sun is but it's wonderful when I can open both ends and let the breeze through. Just can't do that at night in case there are perves walking past the house (on a main road).

Here are some photos.

Yes, that is indeed a wall of firefighters....

Sexy Bitch

Thanks Kerry! You've snapped me out of it.

Been trying to pull my finger out but have not been totally committed to the cause.

Hmm..lose another 15kg - great for my health, my fitness, my strength, my fibromyalgia and my mental health. ALL of that was still not working for me.

But, to get my arse into gear to become A SEXY BITCH - has done it! Just like that!

I am sexual being. I want to flirt, I want to get the boobies out, I want to hairflick, I want to wear sexy clothes - I WANT MANFLESH DAMMIT!!!!

Going to get down to the 60's by Christmas (or near enough) via my low carb plan and then up the carbs/cals and hit the weights just in time for the silly season. I need more muscle!

That is all.

Thought for the day

All good

I have today off so going to do some unpacking, planning and relaxing. I love my new life! Fridays and Mondays off. Might tack another work day on next year (as I really need the money) but for now it's a 3 day week and 4 day weekend every week.

Have not been 100% this week with all sorts of aches and pains and shoulder inflammation but my anxiety has been virtually non existent. I've been on only 50% dose since Monday. That's the lowest dose I've been on in about 3 years. It takes about a week for the levels in my blood to drop so there's a bit of a delayed reaction but all good so far.

A little disappointed that the guy I 'let go' didn't put up much of a fight. Actually he didn't put up any fight at all which assures me I made the right decision there.

So...what's next? Ok..just checked my list and apparently I have to 'workout like a motherfucker'. That's gonna take a while.... but how about 'eat really clean and start some walking'?

Yep...that'll do.

Taller

I saw a friend of mine the other day that I hadn't seen in a month or so. She shook her head and told me that the new hair must really be working for me as I was holding myself totally differently. She said I was like a different person. I've known her for more than 25 years and she's not said anything like that before.

I don't think it's my hair. I mean it does make me feel different, but I think it's more likely the GIANT weights that are progressively being lifted from my shoulders.

It happened again yesterday. I have been seeing my chiro for 5 years. I walked into his office yesterday and he just stood back and looked and said "are you wearing heels?". "No".. "Ok..well you are looking taller. Are you sure you're not wearing heels?"

Cool.

To do list

Seriously....

“If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they're yours; if they don't they never were.” Richard Bach

C'mon...seriously. Has anyone every actually done this? Ya know.....set someone free and had them actually come back??

I think it's probably a load of crap but I'm currently in the process of finding out. I've set someone free. Well ok..I've set him free a couple of times and yeah ok he's kinda come back. But I've really really set him free this time...really.

And no I'm not gonna talk about it 'cos it's stressful and it's one of those things that's been contributing to my anxiety and I need a yes or no on it and to move on.

Got a feeling it's gonna be a no....which is kinda disappointing but I'd rather it be 'no' than be kept wondering. I've been wondering for 4 months.

No, it's not The Idiot Formerly Known as Blockbuster Guy...who is now The Jim's Mowing Guy...but that's another story...