*****WARNING - RANT ALERT*****
What the hell was I thinking???
Gawd it's just awful..and I've not even gone on an actual date! My profile's only been up 36 hours and I'm over it.
I used to do it. But I was a bit younger then. It's suddenly become all weird and icky. And do you know why? MY AGE.
I may be 44 but I don't feel it. Unfortunately the only guys who are interested in women over 40 seem to be men nearing 50!
Sorry, but I like younger guys......it's a fact. Even when I started internet dating at 36 I somehow always ended up younger men. I think I only went on 2 dates out of about 25, where the guy was older than me.
Now, it's just bloody depressing. I'm not dating an old guy. Seriously, I'm getting emails and 'kisses' from guys who look like grandads to me. And these guys are only mid to late 40's!
Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with guys that age, if you are already with them. I know many of you have fabulous hubbies in that age range. My ex is 48. I met him when he was 30 when he was hot..now he's not. But if you age WITH someone it's totally different (and of course you're in love with them so it doesn't matter).
Now, the majority of guys under 40 won't even consider a woman over 40..even if she's got a really cute, cheeky photo and amusing bio. I know I'm sounding like a superficial cow but sex and sensuality are a big part of who I am. I NEED to be really attracted to someone physically. That's not to say that other things don't matter. I need mental stimulation just as much. If you're hot and a dumbass you won't last long around me. I don't care about material crap. I'm the one that usually ends up with the starving artist type or musician...I just need a very BIG spark to start with or I'm just not interested. Internet dating is not my first choice of how to meet someone, but since I met my husband through a friend at the pub 1990, I've not met anyone else, any other way. Everyone bags internet dating but seriously....how they hell else am I going to meet someone?? I don't get chatted up at the pub. I haven't met anyone at work or at uni. Seriously - HOW??? Fuckit. I'm sick as a dog and got a house inspection tomorrow and all I'm doing is checking email to see which creepy guy is undressing me with his eyes now. Brrrrrr. Yes, yes I know. I should just go about my normal little life and Mr Fuckingawesomely Wonderful will just leap out and whisk me away to domestic bliss. Pfft!
EDIT - after a cup of tea and a lie down I've decided I need to be the one doing the 'contacting'. I've just been sitting on my arse and waiting for younger guys to miraculously come across my profile, which is impossible if their search parameters stop at 40.
There's quite a few guys on there I like the look of but I'm too chicken to contact them. I don't like rejection. I will work on my fat loss some more and then go crazy on there. Yes..ok, that sounds like a plan. If I want Man Flesh, I will have to just go out and get me some. I will become the hunter...not the hunted.
PS - BB Idiot has blocked me from seeing his profile. I don't know why...