Now..another BB Guy update.
It's all too fucking haaaaaarrrrrd!!!! Or am I just lazy?? Who knows, but I just can't be bothered at the moment. I really do think he's got a drinking problem. He called me last night and I could hardly understand what he was saying. I asked him if he'd been drinking and he said he hadn't and that he was just tired ...but I'm not f*ing stupid.
If he's got problems with alcohol or any other substance I'm just not going to be in it. I had an alcoholic father and an ex husband who needed about 6 cans a night just to get through his awful life me with and the kids and our beautiful home ...so yeah...NOT happening.
I also think he's keeping secrets. Not sure what but he avoids a lot of questions. I don't think he's still married or anything but I did ask him how long he'd been separated and he made a bit of a joke and cunningly avoided the actual answer. I don't need fresh meat. I need a guy who's single and happy with his life and gotten over whatever shit's happened previously. Ya know?
Thing is, I'm not even upset...I'm not actually - 'anything' about it. As much as I loved the whole man-hunt, I'm not fussed as to whether it works out or not. Weird huh? Major stalker crush on the guy for 7 years and now it's......."meh".
....hmmm...although, wouldn't mind a bit more of the old horizontal dancing.....